Not all mother's know the best to their daugther/son

I was really confused why my mom acting like a nerd,strict and so so overprotective to me. I was doing my studies well. I make my grades so good as well as having good performance in school but why is she still have to decide for my future?..she even not let me to decide whom i should be love. I dont have freedom at all. Why isnt she doesnt understand what i felt?..I feel so alone,depressed,and hopeless. I guess i dont have right to be happy?:(..How long will I sacrifice this pain i feel inside.?...I attempt not to jealous to others and attempt not to cry but tears will fall again...:(

confusing love

love...love..love..

is this love?...A strange feeling came unexpectedly when a man starting to introduce his self a sudden. Confusing ideas dancing up my mind that was really unexplainable. His text was very meaningful and more of emotions that I didn't even appreciate. Am I too bad or I just don't feel love to that guy? I was not ready to commit relation because of my career but my heart still push me to find something extraordinary additionally that can inspire me most of it. Finding true love is not easy. Obstacles and challenges still there to test us enable to commit true love.